Archive for July 8th, 2009
Help me.
Do you ever elevate one ministry over another? Think one more important than others?
When I teach Bible studies, I easily grasp the gravity of the situation. I, a relatively young woman, stand in front of a group of people and attempt to relate God’s Word in a clear and applicable fashion. It’s a weighty responsibility, one I never take lightly. I spend months researching and writing the studies, the entire time begging God for help. I know fully that my knowledge and abilities are vastly insufficient for the task. I mean, this is the Word of God!
When it’s time to teach, all my prayers become one: “God, help me.“
I realized this week, two weeks after finishing my last study, that I haven’t said that prayer in a while. I’m not teaching now; I’m back to just being a mom. I’m just a wife, just a stay-at-home-mother, just a friend, just a daughter. I’m just … wrong. Somehow my pride and experience have convinced me that I’m okay raising these two kids. I desperately need God’s help to teach adults, but when it comes to my kids? I’ve got this. I can handle it. But I can’t.
Oh, God, help me!
Help me remember who You are and who I am and how much I need You! I mean, these are two souls who long to know You. And You’ve made me their guide. Help me to fully grasp the gravity of this task and to honor You wholly through my obedience in fulfilling it. I am not worthy. No matter what my strengths are, they still fall short. I can do no good without You. Only You are perfect; only You can make me successful. I need You. Please, please help me.
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